The Life and Times

It is truly amazing how God is working in my life. I don’t think I would ever truly appreciate how God is working in my life if it wasn’t for me blogging about it. I was just reading over all of my posts that I have been making (not as many as I would like, but hey) and I realized that almost every single post that I have made is just a little tiny piece to a puzzle that brought me to the point I am at today. I just thought I would share the couple of people who actually read this blog that God works in little pieces and doesn’t give you the whole puzzle at once.

I am sure everyone has done a puzzle at some time in their life. Well, imagine your life as a puzzle. When you are doing a puzzle, you have the picture on the box to look at what the completed puzzle should look like. That picture on the box helps you find out where every little piece should go. You without God is like you without that picture on the box. Yeah, you can get through the puzzle without the picture on the box, but you will struggle greatly. Now you with God is much more amazing because He has the box, He sees the completed picture, He will give you the pieces for you to put together the puzzle, all you have to do is accept the pieces. Because God can see the completed picture, He knows exactly which piece you need when you need it.

Anyway, just a thought.

It is truly amazing how God works through people. I am so thankful for the friends that I have, the times that we have shared, and the bonds that we have made. God has really blessed me with a lot of things, but today in church, He really opened up my heart to see that I am not the only one who goes through these valleys. The sermon that pastor gave today was all about how we have to go through the valleys to get to the peaks. I have been in a valley for a while now, and I think I am ready to start the ascend to the peak. One thing that sticks out in my mind from todays sermon, is that we should not make life decisions while in a valley, because we cannot see anything clearly. We should only make life decisions when we are at the peaks, because when we are at the peak, we can see everything clearly.

I realized today that I wrote about my life using the analogy of peaks and valleys just under a month ago, but I haven’t really climbed out of the valley that I was in, I was trying to make my own path up to the peak, rather than take the one that God had pointed me towards. In case you don’t read my MySpace blog, here is what I said about a month ago:

Life is an amazing journey. I think that I have finally gotten out of the many valleys of my life, and am excited to be climbing again towards another peak. While I know that the valleys in life are necessary to get to another peak, it is so scary being surrounded by so many massive mountains. I think that God is leading me down a completely different path than I wanted to go down before, and I know that taking this path will lead me to the peak with the most beautiful view. This is going to be a tough climb, so please pray for me that I can keep God beside me.

Speaking of keeping God beside me, I always used to think that I was supposed to follow God, and here recently, thanks to a lot of conversations with Him, I have realized that I am supposed to walk with Him. I know that many of you may think that I am crazy, or that I am just speaking gibberish, that is ok, one day I am sure you will understand. I used to dwell in my insecurities, but tonight God showed me that in this climb, there will be no place to stop and dwell in an insecurity, and that excites me. Hopefully I will never have to see dwell in another insecurity again, I know that with God at my side, I have all the security I need. God has done a lot to prepare me for this next climb, and tonight has given me peace, the final tool that I needed to get out of this valley. Please know that I am keeping all of you in my prayers, you are always on my heart. Have a great memorial day weekend.

Isn’t it amazing how God reminds us of His plan?

God led me to this on Facebook tonight, and it describes what I am going through perfectly. Thanks to Todd Denman for allowing me to share this with you all.

True Love

I’m so confused.
I don’t know what to do.
Should I stay and wait,
or should I run from the truth.

I’m wanting this love,
that i’ve never known.
I just can’t stay patient.
Because I feel so alone.

I want to be touched,
I want to be held.
I want to feel loved,
like the kind I’ve never felt.

These thoughts circle in my mind,
It’s all I can think about.
God, ease my soul and mind.
So I can wait to see what true love is about.

Wispers in my ear,
telling me i need it.
Messages from society,
telling me to feed it.

It’s just so hard to let go,
of the ways of my flesh.
If i can only persevere,
and get through this test,

I’ll end up in the right place,
end up at the right time.
I’ll find what I’ve been waiting for,
True love and a wife.

Why do I rush?
I need to slow down,
Deny myself and live for you,
Because then I’ll be found.

I’m denying myself now,
giving it to you.
Take me and shape me,
It’s all up to you.

One day I’ll be there,
I’ll look at her face.
I’ll see a reflection of You,
And all of Your grace.

Until then,
I will seek only you,
every day and every night.
Because Your love is the only True.

-Todd Denman

Life is so much fun! It is amazing what God gives to us undeserving people. God has recently shown me something that is sure to make my life a lot more interesting, and I am so grateful for it. I am so amazed at how He provides the weirdest things to remind us that just because He is God, and He loves us. For the first time in my life, I can truly say that I believe that not everything bad that happens to you is bad, it is just God’s way of reminding us that this earth is not our final destination, and what comes after this life is so much more amazing than we can even imagine.